trust

I just love how God knows just what we need when we need it. I found it rather ironic and totally God's work in my life that today as I started thinking about graduating and the fact that I am supposed to hear back from ISU this coming week and that I am super nervous cause I've gone from "oh that's a good 3rd choice school" to "I actually really want to go here!" My fear is that I'll get my hopes up, won't get accepted and will then be sad and disappointed... What does God say? I'll just share a few of the verses that I was led to today:

Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."

Proverbs 11:28
"Whoever trusts in his riches will fall, but the righteous will flourish like a green leaf."

Proverbs 28:26
"Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered."

Proverbs 16:20
"Whoever gives thought to the word will discover good, and blessed is he who trusts in the Lord."

Proverbs 28:25
"A greedy man stirs up strife, but the one who trusts in the Lord will be enriched."

Proverbs 29:25
"The fear of man lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe."

So basically I was convicted that my job is to trust. Now some people take this to the extreme and therefore don't do anything. I think there is a balance and in my life I can trust that God has a perfect plan for me but that doesn't mean that I won't have to work for it. Trust doesn't mean that I sit idly by and wait for God to do all the work, for the process of applying to grad school it has meant researching schools, re-writing my essays over and over and over, filling out applications, studying for the GRE, working hard in school, researching the schools again before interviews, you name it I have done it. Yet throughout this process God calls me to trust in His faithfulness. I know that no matter what happens He will provide for my needs whether that is through a stipend for a graduate assistantship or a job. I am so thankful that I have a God that is big enough for me to put my complete faith and trust in. I honestly don't know where I would be without Him in my life.

Random thougths from my Devos lately:

God you don't need me,
I NEED you.

I can't do anything to help you out,
But I sure need your help.

You want to work through me when I am at my weakest.
But I want to be strong and do it on my own.

I want to portray you and speak your message and be eloquent
But you simply want me to be your voice and surrender to your will.

God the cry of my heart is that you would lead me, use me, mold me and make me into the person you have created me to be. I fall before you completely broken and surrendered. You are my source of peace, I want to find my strength in you alone. God I give you my pride, my goals, my dreams, my plans. It's your life do with it as you will.

Some of the lessons that have stuck out to me after studying Esther:
Every person matters in God's plan
Strength and courage come in the strangest places
Trust in God and the counsel of wise people
He is present always even when we can't see Him
Every day needs to be a step of faith
Remember God's power. His provision. His Providence. And don't be afraid to life His plan for you out!

Oh and on a slightly un-spiritual note: I am officially even more of a Tim Tebow fan (for those of you non-football fans he is the Denver Broncos quarterback and is a strong Christian) fun fact: I found out that he signs everything off GB2 which stands for God Bless, Go Broncos! Love it! :)