Wow it has been a long time since I wrote on here. Maybe I'll try to blog again...
Well I'm living in Terre Haute Indiana. Going to Indiana State University for graduate school and working at Terre Haute North High School as an athletic trainer for my graduate assistantship. God has brought me crazy places over the last several months and done things in my life that I did not expect. The biggest thing on my heart right now is the fact that my Grandma is dying. It's really difficult to be so far away from friends and family at a time like this... I fly out tomorrow to go see her and my family which I'm very excited about.
Well hopefully I'll be updating this a little more frequently, we shall see. But now I'm exhausted...

OH WOW!!! So I have been bouncing off the walls all day!!!
At 1pm this afternoon I received a phone call from Indiana State University offering me a place in their Graduate Athletic training program and a Graduate Assistantship at a local High school. This is such a huge answer to prayer! I was fully prepared for not being accepted and kinda expected to get an e-mail saying "we're sorry but we don't have room for you this year... etc."
Then today when I got the phone call I was literally about to scream cause I am SO excited!!! I cannot wait to see what God has in store. His provision is amazing and trusting in Him always pays off! Without a doubt God's plan is best and I am so thankful that He is the one directing my steps and not me!
YAY! Basically I'm just stocked!
Wow! Yeah if you were here right now you'd think I was crazy (just ask my sister) I've been full of energy all day. (She likened it to a caffeine high with no crash!)

trust

I just love how God knows just what we need when we need it. I found it rather ironic and totally God's work in my life that today as I started thinking about graduating and the fact that I am supposed to hear back from ISU this coming week and that I am super nervous cause I've gone from "oh that's a good 3rd choice school" to "I actually really want to go here!" My fear is that I'll get my hopes up, won't get accepted and will then be sad and disappointed... What does God say? I'll just share a few of the verses that I was led to today:

Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."

Proverbs 11:28
"Whoever trusts in his riches will fall, but the righteous will flourish like a green leaf."

Proverbs 28:26
"Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered."

Proverbs 16:20
"Whoever gives thought to the word will discover good, and blessed is he who trusts in the Lord."

Proverbs 28:25
"A greedy man stirs up strife, but the one who trusts in the Lord will be enriched."

Proverbs 29:25
"The fear of man lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe."

So basically I was convicted that my job is to trust. Now some people take this to the extreme and therefore don't do anything. I think there is a balance and in my life I can trust that God has a perfect plan for me but that doesn't mean that I won't have to work for it. Trust doesn't mean that I sit idly by and wait for God to do all the work, for the process of applying to grad school it has meant researching schools, re-writing my essays over and over and over, filling out applications, studying for the GRE, working hard in school, researching the schools again before interviews, you name it I have done it. Yet throughout this process God calls me to trust in His faithfulness. I know that no matter what happens He will provide for my needs whether that is through a stipend for a graduate assistantship or a job. I am so thankful that I have a God that is big enough for me to put my complete faith and trust in. I honestly don't know where I would be without Him in my life.

Random thougths from my Devos lately:

God you don't need me,
I NEED you.

I can't do anything to help you out,
But I sure need your help.

You want to work through me when I am at my weakest.
But I want to be strong and do it on my own.

I want to portray you and speak your message and be eloquent
But you simply want me to be your voice and surrender to your will.

God the cry of my heart is that you would lead me, use me, mold me and make me into the person you have created me to be. I fall before you completely broken and surrendered. You are my source of peace, I want to find my strength in you alone. God I give you my pride, my goals, my dreams, my plans. It's your life do with it as you will.

Some of the lessons that have stuck out to me after studying Esther:
Every person matters in God's plan
Strength and courage come in the strangest places
Trust in God and the counsel of wise people
He is present always even when we can't see Him
Every day needs to be a step of faith
Remember God's power. His provision. His Providence. And don't be afraid to life His plan for you out!

Oh and on a slightly un-spiritual note: I am officially even more of a Tim Tebow fan (for those of you non-football fans he is the Denver Broncos quarterback and is a strong Christian) fun fact: I found out that he signs everything off GB2 which stands for God Bless, Go Broncos! Love it! :)